NONE OF THIS MATTERS!
They literally suck the life out of me these days. They are so exhausting. They are so hard right now.
If it's not, "Momma- do" its, "me-do". I am not actually sure which one is worse.
Toddler "independence" is an infuriating, time consuming, adorable, wonderful thing.
Toddler "mommy-phase"--ditto. (I am too tired to even rewrite that sentence)
Tantrums...
It is like walking through a minefield these days. One seriously has no idea what is going to set them off.
This 2.5 year old stuff is pretty hard core.
But, I didn't mention, how the girls are able to have full on conversations with each other now.
Or, how they play pretend with each other now.
I also forgot to mention, how watching them literally absorb information, comprehend, and then implement and or say a totally reasonable response back--mind blowing!
Ella is still the "fearless leader".
Ava is still more reserved.
Although, Ella can be the sweetest little "mom". She loves a good snuggle. And, she would sit in your lap and read books with you all day.
Ava seems like she'd be sweet as pie all of the time. She's got every one fooled! She can throw the largest fit in the history of all fits. Her independence is something of its own kind.
I fail everyday at being the "perfect" mom. I loose my cool. I pick my battles, some better than others.
Mothering is seriously the hardest job ever. Even when it is "easy," it takes over your mind, body, spirit, and anything else you call your own.
Tonight, when I tucked the girls in; I hugged them tight, kissed them all over their sweet faces and then, I whispered in their ears; "I will be a better mom tomorrow, I love you so much."
We have fun; a lot of fun. We do lots of fun things and I enjoy the heck out of my girls but, I'd be a lying fool to tell you that this life is a walk in the park. It's not, at least not for me. But I will keep doing my best to be a better mom tomorrow.
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